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Interesting day today.  Not all of it good. :(  I woke up with very sore legs.  I kow it’s from the squats and that it’s growing pains (so to speak)  I knew I was going to have a very long day as I had class after work so i took 3 carrots and an apple to eat at work and for dinner i grabbed a salad of Kale, Romaine, Cabbage & Bean Sprouts.  A little oil and lemon juice to top it off and I was ready to roll. 

I started my day as Ialways do, with a cup of coffee.  I had the carrots and apple spaced throughout the day.  As I was sitting at my desk, I could feel my belly resting on my lap. :( Everytime i got up I felt fat and like I was waddling.  Today was not a good day in terms of feeling good about myself. 

I know it’s a trick of the mind, a way to convince myself that in the end it won’t bbe worth the work i have put in.  I know this will sound  harsh but it’s a mind fuck designed to keep ones self fat, dumb and happy.  I had a hand full of almonds in the afternoon.  I think it’s probably good that no one brought in any goodies because today would have been a back slider if it had been available.  These are the same emotions I associate with eating and usually it is not positive things i eat when I feel like this. 

I am goiing to have to be careful now that i am home and have access to other sorts of food.  Perhaps I will fix something good and positive to snack on tonight.  Hopefully that will be enough to sooth the emotions left raw by feeling like a waddling fatso all day. 

I chomped down a few bites of salad before class since time was running short and then finished the rest when I was finished with class.  It was very interesting to say the least- and it’s photography :)  Eating all these crunchy things is making my jaw tired :p  Okay, enough for tonight

I have decided that I am no longer enjoying the way I look and eat. My awesome friend Rick Rakauskas, also known on Second Life as Turzikas Hax, is helping me change some awfully deeply embeded habits.  Through this change, he assures me that I will lose weight; including losing my awful belly fat, and get fit and trim. 

Hmmm, the picture isn’t quite clear in my mind yet but i am confident it woill be :) 

The first steps were to write down everything I ate for 2 days, which I did and then I emailed it to Rick.  This was done on Wednesday January 9th and Thursday January 10th.  He also reccomended that i start with 3 specific exercises.  The Plank, Squats & Push Ups.  I can do squats and OMG I can barely do the Plank but push ups are a little beyond me.  At least that’s what I thought.  Rick suggested table top or counter pushups.  Umm no?  Not one to give up on a friend, he suggested wall pushups.  myay! I can do those. 

My diet as emailed to Rick is as follows:

Wednesday-

1 8oz container of Peach Yogurt  250 Calories
1 2oz Package of Peanuts 330 calories
3 fish fillet’s 360 caloriesa
ppx 60 thin french Fries 190 calories (appx)
2 cups of coffee w/cream & sugar 300 calories (appx)
1 service of Sunflower seeds (appx 3 tbs) 180 Caloires

Total- 1,610   Calories
Thursday

1 8oz container of Pina Colada Yogurt  250 Calories
Spaghetti w/Sauce and chicken Breast- (appx)500 Calories
2 cups of coffee w/cream & sugar 300 calories (appx)
1 bag of mini rice cakes- Apple Cinnamon 360 Calories

Total-  1,410  Calories

After reviewing my diet, he said I am severly lacking in fresh fruit and vegetables.  I have been working on eating more salad with Kale, raw cabbage, and romaine lettuce in it.  I know I need to add other sorts of vegetables. 

On Friday, Laura brought Donuts and I did very well, I ate none.  However, I did eat about a quarter of an inch thin piece of chocolate cake from Nora’s going away party.  Dinner was Taco Bell: Chalups.  Big mistake, my stomach was not happy. Cramps and nothing fun followed :(  I like Taco Bell darn it :p I did add a salad later on and it tasted great.

Rick also said I should start monitoring my heart rate the formula being 220-my age (43) = Max target. 65% minimum =115

My first monitored walk on Wednesday night was 112 (almost there) My second on Friday night was 120 and last nights walk was 132. so getting better.  I have done the Plank twice and my squat positions seems to be right on and the wall pushups are difficult but not overwhelming. So here I am at the beginning of the journey